A Summer of Silence

HAHAH JUST TO BE CLEAR I NEVER PROMISED MONTHLY UPDATES but...yeah, that was like....four months...without any posts which is...bad...

This summer was a special one, but also a difficult one. I was struggling quite a bit at the end of the last school year and was trying my best to make the vacation days worth it, and I think I accomplished that, but some things aren't going back to the way they used to. My sleep schedule for instance (can no longer wake up early enough to be a functioning human being and sleeping way too late for no reason). Then school came along for the past three weeks and it was nothing but STRESS and ANXIETY and PANIC but also some really nice things I'm super happy about like art class, getting closer with friends, exploring courses I never had the chance to learn about before.

I should being doing my homework but I'm gonna power through this and hope I have enough energy tonight to keep going.

Anyways, this summer I started working on this novella "title-still-in-the-works-but-probably-something-like-'Home'". While it is HEAVILY heavily inspired by The Little Prince, it was infused with so many of my own personal feelings and thoughts that it was a story so close to my heart. Of course, like literally every other project I've ever started, I didn't finish it, which made me more disappointed than I thought it would. It just makes me wonder how many ideas I'll let die and where they'll all go when all is said and done. It's like I've just accepted the fact that I'll accomplish so little in my life that it's not even worth continuing. But the really awesome things that did happen this summer are what lifted my spirits enough to not faint on the first day of school, such as:

- Spending time with my cousin for the first time in EIGHT YEARS.

- Making the first ever saltshakercity merch (lol not really but I painted a cityscape on a pair of salt and pepper shakers and it made me really happy)

- Defeating Calamity Ganon (after more than a year after getting the game I know I'm slow but it was so good I didn't want it to end! AMAZING game 10/10 going for a 100% now I'll document how that goes)

- Getting a new pencil case (which was actually a make-up bag but it's so big and fits everything perfectly and make me really happy it's probably my most treasured possession)

- Watching Voltron (halfway through season 7 and I'm glad I stuck through the iffy storytelling of the first season because DAMN did it get good)

- Drawing...and realizing how much I actually love it. I'm still nowhere next to decent but I hope I can improve enough one day to post more of my drawings.

AWKWARD SEGUE TIME

I'm actually participating in Inktober this year! Which is why I was so excited for autumn (I'm always excited for scarves and cardigans but this year school kinda nullified that exponentially...). I'm following the prompts from the official site because I'm bad at committing to ideas. I might be reviving my instagram for this and also creating a deviant art page where I'll post the day's illustration. Wish me luck cause this final week will be a lot of practicing and preparation! NaNoWriMo is also fast approaching...and if I can successfully complete October's challenge...I'll see if I have the guts to go one month more.

My friend is also teaching me guitar! I learned five-ish chords and could hastily play "Everything Stays" if you asked me to (please don't)

I haven't considered myself an optimist for a long while, but...maybe it's time to see the salt shaker half full. After all, you don't need more than a pinch to make a batch of cookies.

Stay saltful.

#alittlebitofrandom