Here Comes a Thought

How did the time go by so fast?

I really did mean to make another post before the end of the year!!! Christmas, News Years Eve, but alas, they all passed by before I knew it and now here I am trying to catch up on lost time.

It happens a lot, even when we don't realize it. Assignment due in two weeks? It can wait while I finish this thing that's due tomorrow but was assigned a month ago. Project that I've got a whole semester to work on? Think you've got time until a complete product needs to be finished in a week and barely anything is on the table you've set up for yourself. It's like we knowingly dig ourselves into these holes that are going to be hard to climb out of but we do it anyways because no one really knows the perfect way to live a life, and no one can. And while looking at the tried and trusted pathways, one still hopes to make their own as well.

I've been on many adventures in my head and put many plans on paper and yet their execution requires a discipline I don't know how to give myself. It's a challenge of finding things you don't know you need to look for. It's a task of directing yourself somewhere when you don't know if it's where you want to be. And the side quests, all the real "life" experiences that you're waiting for get pushed to the side when the main one is so unrelentingly upfront about its superiority when it might even be considered a stupid goal anyways. The journey needs to be enjoyable. But it can't always be that way because when is anything always going to be going "perfectly"?

What's important to you?

What immediate tasks must be accomplished to continue forward?

What's holding you back?

Where are the point you need to reload from last save and try again?

What are you doing that's making you make the same mistake over and over again and how will you change it?

The New Year is terrible in some ways in that it invites change you may not be ready for but enforces its need to take place. It's hard when you know you need the push but when things just don't seem to be going anywhere anyways you're not just stuck anymore but sinking. And time will just keep passing. And the more time that passes the more there is to remember, the more there is to think about, store inside, experience bubbles up and if it's not the way you wanted it to be, it becomes a snag, a snare, this time that passes.

But you can't let it stay like that. No matter what, vow that tomorrow won't be insignificant.

A friend of mine encouraged me to make a personal mantra, or philosophy; words to live by. Her own was "Whatever it is that will make a good story - do that thing."

I'm still thinking of mine.

I'll get back to you.

- r.k.

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